After down under

G'Day!
yeap. That's what the Aussie would greet you. Localise!

2 weeks over there was amazing. Relaxed, just chilling by the parks and cafes ...
taking time to breathe the fresh air and reading motivating books.
I would say this trip is an absolute refresher for me.
Not like those in HK/BKK where you keep shopping and get tired, this is not. No shopping, just sightseeing and taking your time in everything. Well, that's what you get in Australia.
Everything is slow pace.. which is good. Work-life balance.

Crossing my fingers *** for you know what *** :)

I shall enjoy every moment in life cause you live once. Make it great, make it happy for yourself. Not for others. :):):)

Loves,
Koala.

(and, of course, that's my favourite)

A new image

Finally a new template to get started.
Decided to just use Blogger's templates since they have updated their styles recently.
Used a simple one. No need so complicated right? What matters is the content. haha.

One problem is ... I cannot link to other blogs... dunno how to. shit. haha.

Let me figure out soon.

两个人相爱 但不能在一起。
会有这样事情吗？

A day of tears

23rd September 2012.
Supposed to be a perfect day.
Mum went on to talk about it.
I just listened and tried to control but I failed in the end.
Worse part is.. U want us to  be back together again and still want him as a perfect son-in-law.
and u will not want any one else.
So, that leaves me with ????
Emotionally upset. I read our memories. I watched the video again.

It is clawing back to me, to 9months back again.
How long more to heal back.....

strength, courage. please.

What I like to do.

Love to take a stroll.by the park/beach/ sentosa..
Keeps my mind refreshed and away from.busy city.
If I could... staycation!

Think That's e result of Working like hell... frequent breaks in between.

Rain

Rain. kinda hate rain nowadays. Makes me emo. haha.
No comfort.

My pre birthday wish.

If I could be greedy - my pre birthday wish pls.
See fireworks! Makes me awww....
I want... and miss... romantic moments.....
Time to change. New necklace.

Well.
I. Want.to.restart.my.life.

Bangkok

4 days of bangkok retreat.
Been walking n walking. Didn't bought much stuff. When u shop for one, u definitely buy less things. But somehow... tend to see some nice things.. n realise u can't buy. Cause no one to give. And u just stop shortly. Happened many times to me.
Sometimes send moments just take u back to where u were before.

If I remember correctly... I just took once with him. N. That's it. Right.

Mirror images

Sometimes as u walk along e street, do u see images or action that u have done or pass through before?
I do.
And I often get these.
Seeing others doing through those actions, sweet.
And u knowu been through. And suddenly u get emotional. And all the if onlys starts coming to your mind.
Signs off...

Love yourself

This sentence often comes out and your probably heard it.
You cannot please everyone.
Very true.
Someone reminded me this. But I always have this bad habit... thinking about everyone of what they will think. Make sure everyone happy.
Ended up. Try too hard. Make yourself sad.
So... love yourself first.
Tough eh. It's tough for me.
But I'm learning... learning to love myself more and let go.
Ya. I think alot. Really alot.
Can't help it. Haha.

Doesn't matter where u r now, what stage u are going through in your life, create a better one.
Create your own life that you want.
Some philosopher told me. Haha.

You.know what?
I'm gonna create mine. Sweet nice simple and as usual romantic. But this time... with excitements in social life. :)

Had a good news yesterday from my family...
Accepted the fact that I'm probably e only problem in the family. The only worry. Haha.
But appreciate what events in life can change your attitude and perception towards life.
The things u can do for the ones you love.
Will definitely work hard for my future family if I will have one.
So much so for studying n studying n studying. Haha...

I hope I can sleep throughout e night today

Smile.
Smile.
Smile.
The sun will still rise even if you are sad.
Get moving with life.

I'm a mind bogger.
I just pray for your health, happiness.

:(
i wanna cry.

Stupid Me

Why do I always make myself upset by watching and seeing news of people getting married/ the express highlights...
dumbass.

不去在乎 就没事了啊。
不去想 也没事了啊。
但明明做不到。
该死的我。

Food Marathon

Can't believe I ate so much today!
Enough to feed me 2 days! Definitely hitting e gym next week daily...
Guilty.
Mookata BBQ. Tea. Dessert. J.co. OMG.

On a random note, ever wanna try something out of e norm?
We all live in a cycle - child, study, teenage, young adult, working, finding a partner, to settling down and have a family... And this goes on.
Ever thought what's your purpose in life?
I dunno what's mine. And I always wonder all e what ifs .. Options in life u take.
So, I thought to myself, live life once, so I'm gonna take options that I never tried.
First is social dancing.
Then, diving and explore options I never thought I would do.
Sky dive!!! Well if I can find along my trip :)
Speed dating!!! Lol...
Leave e country and road trip for a year is one big leap that I'm tempting....

Well, what's your life outside e comfort zone?

Everything's gonna be just fine

Sleepless night.
Pray everything's alright.
Stop thinking negatively.
Right?

Bad to Worse

Breathing has become from bad to worse these few days.
Went for run on Thursday - No good.
Decided to run on Sunday. No good still.
Tried to run today again. Finally made a 5km successfully without stopping but breathing still bad.
Am determined to keep running to fight against this..... even though, i'm afraid i'll collapse halfway....

This problem will forever be a liability and never go away. :(

Baby Lucas - 4 months

Been 2 weeks since I last saw baby!
He cried when i carried him :(
But luckily after that he stopped *phe* and of course started laughing cause he remembered! :):):)

Have you ever...

I really dunno why i'm so upset.
Will you mind someone's past?
to what extent will you then mind?
Ever thought what would your future be and the consequences if you have done something?
Are you not worried if one day someone will actually mind your past?
Have you regret what you have done?
IF your frequently done something, will you stop once and for all? Are you able to do it?

I don't want empty promises. empty promises that one day, you just give up everything.

i'm... god damn afraid. seriously.
i think i should just let go.
time for you to earn it. time to show what you really want.
i'm not going to wait.

THE END

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY........