Reflection

Someone woke me up from my mental state yesterday.
He was worried I may end up in depression.
I lied down and started thinking about myself.
The truth is, yes... i think alot. i worry alot of things that sometimes, it's beyond my control. I worry things that might happen months way ahead.
haha..
I know this is something i need to change. But it really takes time.
All my life since my family separated, I knew i had to stand up alone and be independent.
that's when i start to think alot.. and to push myself to the limits.
I can't stop. cause i already took a break of 2 yrs after JC.
But maybe, it's really time to just rest abit.
The reason why i hit the roof yesterday was probably because of many factors.
My leadership growth plan that i did last week, gave me alot of stings.
My boss commented that i am doing perfectly well, but she expects more because she thinks i can reach further.
There's a section of what's my career interest. That took me 3hrs to think about.
and of course, i still have my exam to worry about. honesty, i just pray i can get 50marks.
2 more weeks is my mock exam.

I guess i might need to take things slightly slower. better go for yoga lessons instead.

thanks mr. honeybee. for waking me up from all my problems. and lending yr shoulders whenever i'm down.

1 more month. and that's it.

i think i'm super reluctant to type my free days. cause.. I HAVE NO MORE FREE DAYS!!!

I have warehouse count this coming weekend.
next week got extra classes...
and by then it's end of the month, and guess wad? My mock exams is on 9th Nov. and 12th Nov.
Super not good.
Haven even study.
honestly, i really dun wanna fail. and really wanna do well... but Time is not on my side.
Often have to work late... not because i want to. but... u cannot don't work ot in here. u will never get your reports out by then. and they will screw u using emails.

Well, this is a super emo post. so might wanna cross it out if it affects yr mood.
:(:(:(
i dunno why. somehow i feel that there's alot of pressure on passing this stupid acca thing. cause alot of my colleagues sayd that it's damn difficult to pass. and the fact is, only 46% pass tax. one of the most challenging papers.
i kinda feel that everyone is waiting for me to fail. cause i'm the youngest. hahaha.
plus, these few days i made some errors in my report... and everyone was like shooting emails here and there at night while i went to study....
and i missed one of the deadline. argh. damn shit.
although i try and stay nonchalent, but deep down, i'm just pissed off with myself. haiz.
getting up at 6.30am and finishing the day at 1230am doesn't seem easy anymore.
just mentally drained.
but what to do. Accountant life eh.
Going to PWC also the same i guess.

ok, here you go. my calendar for the month of Oct.

9 Oct (Sat) - Class till 5pm
10 Oct(Sun) - class till 1pm
16th Oct (Sat) - Annual Stock Count
23th Oct (Sat) - Event (Tentative)
24th Oct (Sun) Class till 1pm.

:(:( This month's not a good month to look forward.
no hols. no break.